"But be very careful to keep the
commandment and the law
that Moses the servant of the LORD gave you:
to love the LORD your God, to walk in
obedience to him,
to keep his commands,
to hold fast to him and to serve him
with all your heart and with all your soul.”
Wow, talk about gettin' in my face, Lord. This verse literally stopped me in my tracks as I read it, and caused me to pause, asking myself each of these questions. Do I love the Lord? Absolutely, 100%. That one was easy. A++ for me! Do I walk in obedience to Him? Well, I certainly try to be obedient, but if I'm honest with myself, I must admit that I often fall short in this aspect, especially when His path and mine don't quite line up. Do I keep His commands? hmmm....I'd like to say yes, but again, I'm falling quite short here, too. (I'm starting to feel nervous about my 'not so much' answers here!) Do I hold fast to Him? WHAM! Hit me square in the forehead, why don't ya? No, I often don't hold fast to Him. What I hold fast to is my desires, my plans, my wants. Do I serve Him with all my heart and all my soul? Nope, not even close. If I can't walk obediently, keep His commands, and hold fast to Him, there's no way I'm able to serve Him with all my heart and soul.
Man, that hurts to admit that.
So, what's the reason for all of my not so much answers? Simply put, it's me. Little ol' me, with all of my selfish pride, need to be in control, well laid plans and organizational strategies, To-Do lists and calendars, play dates and Mom's Nights, everything I do gets in the way of what the Lord wants to do for me, if only I'd step aside and let Him work. All I have to do is seek Him and obey. That's it. Strangely enough, it's exactly what I tell my children. "All you have to do is listen to what I say and then do it. It's not that difficult" hmmm............insert bruised toes here.
After my reading I watched Wendy Pope's vlog and she noted:
"Joshua recorded the “recommitment”
of the Israelites in the Book of God’s Instruction.
Do I record my recommitments?"
So after being convicted so thoroughly this morning, I decided I needed to record my recommitment right here on this blog for everyone (no one really, as I don't yet have any followers) to see. Actually, the only one who needs to see it is me, to remind myself visually of God's will for my life......God first, husband second, children third, everything else (including me!!) last.
“Now fear the LORD and serve him
with all faithfulness.
Throw away the gods your ancestors
worshiped beyond the Euphrates River
and in Egypt, and serve the LORD.
But if serving the LORD seems undesirable
to you, then choose for yourselves
this day whom you will serve,
whether the gods your ancestors served
beyond the Euphrates, or the gods of the Amorites,
in whose land you are living.
But as for me and my household,
we will serve the LORD."
In Loving Service to the Lord, my husband, and children,
the Busy-at-Home Mom